Ignorant People

ok- now reading through this i realize there are parts when i dont even make sense. eek!

im not even going to start wiht a greeting. thatll get this no where. im jsut really freaking pissed off becuase someoneeeee keeps going "are you mad at me? are you mad at me? are you mad at me?" and all i want to say is go to hell but 456789gagillion times i sucked it up and said no. so she puts every little freaking reason why she thinks im mad at her on the table. all TWO reasons. and you know what? its jsut becuase she was a little stupid bxtch i finally snapped. finally. effing. snapped. and now SHES mad at ME. since i told her that she asked me how i was doing afret i had jsut been througha class that i know she knows that i hate and that a specific group of people in that class had jsut been picking on me for the last hour in a half, so for the 15 minutes before she had asked me that i hate been biting through my hand, staring at the wall, and trying not to cry. becuase thats what i do. i try not to take it out on other people, so when she asked me (and i was still practically crying, mind you) she starts a CHEERY conversation. saying this and that. on her FOURTH line in (and totally oblivious to me) she asks how im feeling. like she expects me to say : oh, ive never been better. im so glad you asked! how are you?. and so i gave her the death stare. i dindt even trust myself to speak. not a single word. and i walk away before she can see me cry. which is where this post began. and so now shes like "im so sorry for being nice" and being a total axxhxle about it. saying stuff like "well you had been being nice" and other stuff ot piss me off more. and you know which type of girl this is? the one of those poeple i have stood to protect like no effing other. when i see her making frinends with poeople i think are going to hurt her or somehting, i tell her. i help her wiht everything. hear her rant about everything. and all that jazz so that shes actually happy, since i know she struggles with it. and i jsut want to scream right now. thats all i can do. theres nothing to get the anger out. im nearly crying, while biting my lip, and shaking. nothings helping. not even my writing, which normally helps. the one of two things that can help me. and nothing is working. and now shes mad at me. and its all my fault.
Tal

PS. this was an anger post, and there really isnt any use in reading it. its jsut a vent.