i dont know how to explain whats going on. i dont even know where to begin with it. its jsut this nasty feeling eating away at me each and every day. i cant focus, or work, or even think straight. its not that i have a lot of energy either. i mean, i sometimes will, but most of the time im jsut at a crash. its jsut an ugly mess of conflicting characters in me, and its jsut getting worse and worse. There moments where i swear im the stupidest moron in the whole world, that i cant do anything right, and within the hour ill randomly change and bvecome a ego-maniac. its like... what the hell.
but then with homeowkr and stuff too to work on, which may actually be a good thing so im not focusing on anything to negative. so mostly if just been losing my social life (or what of it i had to begin with) and becoming closer to my teenager-going-cat-lady self. stupid adolescence.
Tal